11:22am 3/31/15

Whenever I see myself naked I just think about how great it will be once I have a bikini tan.

11:21pm 3/30/15

Side Note. Although I understand it MAY be good for some young women to see this and possibly good for Karrueche career wise (though I don't see or care how), I am really not for her crying on national TV over a man. I feel like Oprah should be cutting CB a check for all these "Chris Brown Broke my Heart" specials. Women have so much power, and a great deal of it is wasted on men. - A man is not your testimony. A man is not your greatest hurdle in life. Side, side note. Karrueche is actually a cutie!

10:45pm 3/30/15

"What is it about you, Karrueche Tran, that would draw a damaged man into your life?" Women have been trained to be in love with a minimal man. Made to feel like it is the norm to cry over "love". So willing to "wait", and postpone their happiness for the sake of another. If those are not tears of joy it's not worth your time. Men have been trained to do only as much as they need to to get what they want. Women have allowed that to be ... not much. Men don't fall in love with "promise". Women do. Men most often don't fulfill promise and move on to what most immediately fulfills their needs. People need to hold themselves accountable. Healthy relationships exist when you stop making excuses for yourself and for others.

5:38 pm 3/29/15

People are going to do whatever they WANT to do. Don't ever let them fool you into thinking any different.

4:56pm 3/29/15

At the end of the day actions are everything at the end of the day.

1:29pm 3/27/15

LordJesus, if there is a Christ in heaven, please spare me from dating and send my husband QUICK!

7:40pm 3/23/15

Some of the most amazing times of my life have yet to happen.

10:14pm 3/22/15

I know exactly what a healthy relationship looks like and entails. I have no interest in entertaining anything less.

9:01pm 3/22/15

melanin is everything!

2:08pm 3/20/15

I've been throwing up all day at work.
Just threw up my lunch. I can't keep any food down and I'm afraid to eat again.
Stuff like this never happens to me.

11:39am 3/19/15

I'd much rather have wet dreams about women than nightmares about men.

8:51 pm 3/18/15

I love my family so much. They help keep me warm.

2:47pm 3/18/15

I just reread a final paper I wrote in 2008 on Eisenstein's "polyversal humanity".

If someone would have brought up Zillah Eisentein to me yesterday I would've had no clue who they were talking about.  -_-

11:15am 3/18/15

I would love to do a ranking of which hedge funds have the best kitchen.

It would include decor, layout, stemware, snack and drink selection (including teas), condiments, and frozen food selection.

Anchorage by far has the best layout, snack (so much chocolate it could be Halloween! + they have drawers of blue Orbit), drink and frozen food selection, however their coffee cups are struggling.

Tremblant def has the best stemware.

3/16/15 9:51pm

I'd love to go to Spain and try a thousand craft Gins.

3/16/15 7pm

I've decided I'm going to learn to play the guitar.

To be continued...

3/16/15 12:27pm

Embrace what the universe has to offer me it may be more abundant than anything I could have imagined I wanted.

3/15/15 9:18pm

I realize that the man I will marry is probably somewhere right now, in a relationship, with no clue that I exist, thinking he will spend the rest of his life with the person he's with now. The exchange of people in life is crazy, how lives intertwine (not in a sleazy way), maybe they will have an amicable breakup and then we will meet. It's just at a certain age you tend to believe you're going marry anyone you are seriously dating, though more likely that you won't. 

More hopefully my future husband is currently independent and happily unattached focused on making a life for himself and future family. And in a perfect world...saving intimacy for his future spouse, as am I. 

Putting it out into the Universe. 

3/15/15 9:11pm

I think one of the best things about me is that I'm always the same person. 

And I rarely act aimlessly. I always have intentions, whether good or bad.  

I try my best to only act on the good ones.

3/15/15 2:25 am

the most amazing thing about this party is the fact that their are people my age here that have no idea where they are.


Not even sure anymore.

3/14/15 8:01pm

Her middle name will be Maison

Marley-Ila Maison

<3

3/14/15 5:46pm

As long as you're alive you still have a chance to be happy,
and maybe death is ecstasy, won't know until I try it.

3/13/15 9:42am

Growth for the most part is invisible. 

We wake up and were taller. 

We wake up and our hair and nails are a little longer. 

But I have never seen that exact moment where I grow an inch. 

Rarely do we get to see growth with our own eyes. 

I guess that's why it's cool in movies/cartoons (bla bla) when they speed things up and show someone's appearance change  (like a beard growing).

Or why kids are fascinated to see worms regenerate their parts. 

We often see change but growth is a pretty foreign concept to our eyes. 

3/13/15 12:33 am

I really do want something so real it's invisible.

A bond only we know about. Only we'd know what it felt like because it only exists with us. It can't be replicated because only we can create it. A bond like God. Even if you never saw it you still believe it. We could be apart forever and itd still be so real.
... But we'd never have to be. Because we'd both chose each other every day over anything. And it would be overwhelmingly visible to everyone else. Like Energy/Vibe PDA.

HopelessRomanticColdBitch

3/12/15 9:20am

...actually it was a clusterfuck of weird dreams last night.

3/12/15 9:18 am

Weird dreams about Beethoven.

3/11/15 2:45am

The most tragic part is that Marley-Ila won't exist if I can't trust anyone.

3/11/15 1:48 am

My view of the world is subtlety but drastically changing.

3/9/15 2pm

If I have cash and I see someone who is IN NEED and not just NEEDY, I will give.

3/8/15 2:55pm

How come people compliment me and then say "God bless you" ?

Wouldn't it be more useful to go around asking God to bless the ugly and unfortunate?

3/7/15 12:18am

Cautiously optimistic, tho I feel I shouldn't be.

V, if and when this does not work out. Don't be sad. Don't cry. Know that you are smart and aware.

For me and only me.

I need to be strong enough to stand in my truth.

3/3/15 10:41pm

safe and warm inside myself.

3/3/15 10:36pm

Guess I needed you enough not to notice 
Guess I wanted you enough to lie
You wear so many faces
I shoulda known
But that sure was a beautiful disguise  

3/2/15 11:55am

I know better.

3/1/15 7:05pm

My jewelry is definitely a reflection of me; which may be why I have difficulty making delicate pieces.

I hope that's the correct use of a semicolon.

3/1/15 7:04pm

Maybe I have always been resilient.