2/10/15 8:04pm

One day when my husband and I have our beautiful Marley-Ila, I will remember today and appreciate even more how much of a blessing she is. He will probably never know about today because (hopefully) it will be a blip of an insignificant memory that has only this time consuming, inconvenient, short term affect on my future.  Or maybe I will just tell him in passing one day and we will laugh about my overreactions and dramatics. No matter, I will always remember how I felt today and how certain I am about my desire for her existence.